David and I got married after four years of dating on June 3, 2006. In April 2008, we welcomed our first born son into the world Austin Alan Colschen. In April 2010, we welcomed our second son into the world Hunter Ryan Colschen. The Colschen family consist of little brother (Hunter), big brother (Austin), Mom (Candace), Dad (David), and two dogs Tex and Princess.
I remember when we got pregnant with Austin how excited we were and the things we talked about that would change but there are some things that I didn't think about and I don't think if I had it would make things easier. Wednesday night I had a major meltdown because I miss spending all my moments with Austin. I got spoiled being able to spend from April-August with him and it has made it really hard leaving him. I think that I was in denial about the I was having a hard time and just pushing it back and pushing it back and trying to be strong that I just couldn't keep it in anymore and the flood gates opened. David of course was wonderful and very supportive and tried to make me feel better. I explained to him that I just don't want to miss anything and he told me, "You see how Austin lights up, grins, and laughs with you. He is going to save it all for you." I thought that was very sweet. It is amazing how much love you can have for someone so small and instantly. I mean from the day he was born he stole my heart. I am going to be one of those moms that wants to get another hug and kiss and he is going to be like "Ahhh, mom. Stop." Haha. I love the place he goes to school and he is doing so well (which has made it so much better on me) but it is hard going from getting to spend 24/7 with him to only spending 5 hours a day with him. People say it will get better and I hope that it does but I am sure there will be times here and there where the flood gates will open again. Haha. I had David take a picture of Austin and I that night because I wanted to capture him still being a baby and resting on me. Haha. I can't get enough of our perfect son Austin!
We have started a new routine where we eat our cereal after our evening nap at about 7:45 and then wash it down with some juice water. Austin has been eating from a spoon for about a week now and he is doing so good. It is amazing how fast babies learn from just watching people and soaking up the things in their world. I mean Austin obviously has never eaten from a spoon in his life but he acts as if he has been doing it since day one. It is funny because when he is eating he reminds me of the scene from the movie What About Bob when they are at the kitchen table eating dinner and Bob is moaning after every bite because he is enjoying his meal so much. Austin does that and I just laugh and smile every time because it makes me think of that scene. After we eat we head outside from our nightly stroll around the neighborhood at 8. We do a mile loop and he just loves it. Last night though was one of the cutest things I have seen. It is funny because everything Austin seems to do is the cutest thing I have seen....anyways...we were finishing our walk on our street and I noticed that his head was kind of down and I stopped pushing the stroller and walked next to him and he had fallen asleep. Adorable!! I wish I had the camera with me but at least I have learned to bring it every where I go with him now. After our walks we come inside and talk for a little bit on the kitchen counter. After we are done talking we read our two favorite bedtime stories: Are you my Mother? and DoobyDooby Moo. After reading our stories dad usually gets home and we play with dad for a little bit until it is bath time. After dad gives him his bath he eats one last time and then he is in his bed at 9:30 and doesn't wake up until 6 the next morning. We have been so blessed with Austin and him being such a wonderful baby! He truly makes me want to have 100 more but I think we have narrowed it down to just 3. Haha.
So today marked day three of dropping Austin off at daycare. I had been preparing myself (I don't think you are ever really prepared) for almost a month. I was probably in denial really up until we got to the final week countdown. I had two practice days last week and Austin and I did pretty good. Each day is getting a little better (I will never say that it is easy). The only thing that gets me through each day is knowing that we are doing this so that we can have an even bigger family. It was a roller coaster of emotions today because I was as well as can be expected dropping him off and then decided at my lunch break I would go visit him. When I got there they said that he had just fallen asleep for one of his naps. I was a proud mom because he looked so peaceful and content and wasn't crying (unlike the two times I visited him last week when he was). I didn't wake him up because I didn't want to make him mad so I went back to work. When I went to pick him up he immediately smiled at me and started to talk. It was almost like he was so excited to tell me about his day which made me smile. Driving home today though with Austin was tough because he started to fuss a little bit because his pacifier fell out so I reached back into the back sit to stick it back in his mouth (I have become a pro at doing that now and will probably one day need some type of surgery because of the angle I am bending my arm...but it will have been worth it to make my baby happy). Anyways...after I put his pacifier back into his mouth he death gripped my hand. I was thinking to myself that he was probably thinking "Don't ever let me go!" It just made me start to cry because he was holding on so tight. He even fell asleep with his arm in the air holding onto my finger. He was not letting me let him go and I was not letting him go either. I guess he must have played really hard at daycare because he was passed out when we got home and the car ride is maybe 7 minutes long from his school. I miss not spending every minute of every day with him and it will definitely take time for me to adjust. I am glad though that I am a teacher and will get to spend holidays and summers with him so I am blessed with that.
On Sunday, August 17th Austin went to his very first baseball game to watch the Houston Astros. It was a special day because they were retiring Craig Biggio's jersey. Austin was of course the perfect kid and we even got to stay for the entire game. We got the call Saturday night from our friends asking us if we wanted to go because they got some extra tickets and David was really wanting to spend some time with Austin since he had to work late all week and didn't see him much so I told him we all three could go. It was great! I think the best part of the whole game was watching David and Austin sit together. There is nothing like seeing the man you married and love hold and bond with your child. It melts your heart! David even said driving home, "There is nothing like having your son sit on your lap at a baseball game!" I am so blessed with a wonderful husband and an amazing father of our son Austin. I could tell that David was proud at the game and loved every minute of it because Austin was there. I am looking forward to watching the relationship between the two of them grow and grow. I know Austin is going to love his Dad and hanging out with him going to games, fishing, and all the things a father does with his son!